When I think about my life back at home, I’m just reminded of so many great memories. I think of all my homies back at home, the times we’ve shared, all the fucking bullshit I’ve been through, and basically how I got to where I am today. It’s crazy to think that some of that has just become memories now. And it’s seriously a fucking trip to think that I’ve made so many friends, but in the end, only a few stayed with me. My whole high school experience… I’ll never forget it. Those people are people I will remember forever. I started off in middle school having a big group of friends, I thought once I got into high school, I’d be in that same group but as time went on, I realized I only needed a small circle; people that could be real and people I could trust. It’s crazy how I even got into a small circle by freshmen year, it was all so random. I’ll never forget Jhoe, Kristine, Kyle, Maryvel, Alex, Kristi, sometimes Allison Butt lol. So many people came and gone in our lives our freshman year.. We did some crazy shit and we met so many people. Honestly, we were the shit, Idgaf hahaha. I fucked with them and ride or die dude, it’s crazy to think throughout high school I was still close with most of them. Yeah, a couple gone and left, but in the end… those homies that I stuck with until senior year are always gonna be people I ride or die for.. It’s inevitable that we were all gonna make different friends and have different groups we kick it with, but honestly, I’ll always ride for Kristine, Maryvel, Kyle, Alex, Jackie. Throughout high school.. I just felt like those were always the real ones. Like, I know some have let go of the past and it’s whatever now, but the point is.. I’LL NEVER forget any of it. They were the reasons I made it through high school, and they will always be down ass homies to me. Needless to say, I did make a lot of other good friends by the end of high school like Cindy and June, they will always be old, good friends to me and it’ll always be a special type of bond between us 3. And Alli and Kreesha, those are my girls since 3rd grade, I’ll always fuck with those girls. And my class officers… Shit, I wouldn’t have survived senior year without them, I’ll never forget them and we’ll always have something special when we’re together.. And Chelsea and Bree, what would I do without those girls. They’re like my babies, I love them to death. And those group of homies (too many to name) how we all just enjoyed senior year together.. I’ll never forget that.. Yeah, we all got on each other’s nerves sometimes people didn’t like each other, but that’s just high school and I’ll never forget how AMAZING our senior year was just because we all put in an effort to make it the best. Is it crazy that I cry thinking about all this??? Like fuck, it’s such a fucking trip to think about whose come and gone in my life and who made me who I am today. I’ll never forget my struggles… the memories, and most importantly, the people. I’m grateful for everyone thats come and gone in my life because everyone had a purpose in my life, whether good or bad. Sometimes, I feel like people never feel the way I just described right now, but as long as they know how I feel.. that’s all that matters. I want people to know that I’m grateful for all the shit I’ve been through and who I’ve been with through it all. Because life moves too fast.. and life goes on so quickly.. sometimes, you forget. But I don’t want to ever forget. Even though life goes on and I can’t go back in the past anymore, I want to be able to reminisce and smile about it all, because I’m happy with where I am and how I got here. And sometimes, I just miss the past. I miss the memories. And I miss the people.
As cliche as this may sound, I don’t want you to wake up the next day and feel differently about our relationship, and not even just the next day but anytime. The love you give me and love we share is so hard to find. You are seriously my other half and you make me better. You keep me so grounded and balanced. You know, girls usually take forever to find everything they want in a guy just because they think they want something they can’t get with a person that they’re with, but they don’t realize that sometimes, the guy had those characteristics the whole time. But for me, I’ve had what I wanted and needed this whole time. I’m gonna admit that it took me awhile to see that. You are everything I need and want. Through all this time and effort I’ve invested in you and this relationship, I’ve realized that I’ve found the love of my life. Whether that changes or not in the future, I can’t say, but right now and in this moment of time, you are the person I’m in love with and want a future with. We have grown so much as people and as a couple, it’s crazy to think about how much we’ve been through and how we got so far. I can’t thank you enough for putting up with me and growing with me on this crazy journey. You are seriously my high school sweet heart and now we’re both adults. Isn’t it crazy to think that we fell in love as kids and now that we’re growing up and becoming adults, we’re falling in love as adults? But our love carries a type of youth and innocence that most adults don’t have with the person they love. We have so much history and we have so much invested in our love. I just can’t wait for what else the future has to offer and I just hope and pray that we can make this work and grow with each other. I love you so much and I can’t explain that enough to you.